Knowing you was a pleasure, to have you in my life was a privilege. Maybe I never really meant anything to you anyways. I guess I wasn’t the same person for you as you were to me.
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After all the things we’ve been through, all the good times we had, you’d still give me the cold shoulder. It would be unfortunate for things to end abruptly right where they are now. You were important to me, my need for comfort and security. If I had to give up my mother’s gifted necklace just to make you happy, I wouldn’t think twice. I would look for you in the dead of winter, serve you my heart on a silver platter, if you’d ever ask. I’d feel the rhythm of your heart against the rise and fall of each inhale and exhale, a metronomic entrance.
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For me to land in and your shirt to soak up all my tears. It would always be there then, your arms.
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A howling wolf in pain, searching for shelter. In the void of the night, I would call out your name. I can’t tell you about these things anymore. My heart it feels large enough to make room for more than one, though too small to be shared. There are things I feel inside me spiraling into a whirlpool of clusterfuck, like Jean Grey going ham on roids. This letter is meant to be written but not sent directly to you. Thank you for making me feel alive again. I just want you to be happy, the way you have made me within the numbered days, even if its not with me. I just didn’t want to lose any body else anymore. I opened myself to accept you for your past, present and whatever version of you the future may hold. I wanted to tell you that I’m ready to ride together and die together (bad boys for life!), that I’m constantly making room in my schedule awaiting for a chance to catch a glimpse of your voice and face, to so badly make you happy, spoil you and tell you that I sayang you. I was making space in my heart to make room for you, I haven’t got the chance to even tell you that yet. You were the only one who’s worth calling me baby.Īnd then you disappeared without a word. You were the best thing I never knew I needed. Alas, what is a story without any plot twists? Among the clouds is where you appeared, when I thought that I was floating. I was falling from thousands of feet from the sky spiraling down thinking it was all a dream. Maybe I was blinded in the beginning or I didn’t realize it yet I was slowly falling for you. I don’t want you to feel anything that would hurt your heart. I was hurt so many times and I have hurt many before. I was so scared, so scared of getting hurt. It’s been nearly a decade since I’ve last felt this genuine joy. It fills your heart with so much light that it feels like it’s going to radiate out of your chest, the butterflies in your tummy create such chaos that it would lift you off the ground without even noticing at any minute.
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That love bubble rush feeling, the type of anxiety filled crush where you feel like you’re floating in the clouds, the motivational drive that pushes you out of bed looking forward to the part of your day where you get to see them or hear their voice even for a moment. It has been a very long time that I’ve felt like a living carcass, believing that I could never feel the way I did back in my adolescents years.